Today is your birthday, Mom...you would have been 90. I will be 60 in a few months. I have outlived you by 12 years, you were only 48, I was almost 16 when you died. I hardly knew you. So many questions we could answer for each other if we could have one more conversation. I think I know what love is between a mother and her children. Somehow in the short time you spent with us, your 8 children, you gave us a family to value. We all still spend every Christmas together. We still care even though we live all over the U. S. I have ten incredible grandchildren and I have been given time to enjoy them. That was my dream, my wish, as a girl. I just wanted to see my girls grow up. Now getting to know my grandchildren is so sweet. I still miss you. I loved you so. Losing you was so hard. Happy Birthday to my dear Mother. Thanks for the songs you sang, for the cakes you baked, for the love you gave...you were never truly gone from me, you have lived on in my heart these many years.
Happy birthday to your mom, from me too. She must be delighted to have a almost-60 year old daughter wishing her well.
ReplyDeleteI've been reading your comments on the One Minute Writer and I see that the anticipation of your 60th birthday looms very large in your thoughts. It's one of those hard ones. No sane person can say there's still half a life ahead [although it's conceivable for a cockeyed optimist to think so]. I had the same trepidations about 60. When 70 came I was so totally agog it took me a while but I decided to admit it to the world and started a blog called Big7-0andgoing strong. The 60s are a great decade -- I hope you'll enjoy them as I have. You're lucky to have your mom with you as you look forward to them.