Tuesday, July 11, 2023

Alone on the old front porch…

 Ivan died at home holding my hand. He passed peacefully at 6:06 a.m. on 6/06/2023. Hospice broke his heart. He cried. He was so sad to leave. Kelley and Cammy were with us when he left this life that he loved so much. I bathed him and dressed him for the funeral home. His Graveside service was loving. So many people attended. My entire family from Vancouver,BC to Idaho,  LA, downstate, Texas, Florida all attended. It was a tribute to a life well lived. He had no regrets. He just wanted more. 

This now is the hard part for me. Caregiving was not it. Missing him is the most painful thing I have been through. I am alone. Somehow I have to make a life without unconditional love. Without his unwavering love and friendship. He was a good man. My heart is broken.



4 comments:

  1. I am so sorry for you loss. I am praying for you.

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  2. You are welcome.

    I have never been married so I cannot imagine the grief you are feeling. I am guessing that it must be overwhelming at times.

    When both of my parents passed away, my sister and I started a scholarship in their name at the local high school. It was only for $300 (I think) and we only did it for about 5 years but it helped me with the grieving process. My parents were such loving and giving people that I knew they were smiling down on me and that made me smile too.

    That was about 30 years ago. I still think of them everyday and remember the lessons that they taught me and the funny things they used to say.

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